MY HORMONE MADE ME WRITE THIS

SALAM...

actually i wanted to write for so long. suddenly my hormone just made me write this post.
;)

alhamdulillah..after so long, I think i want to start writing again and share my thought with u guys.

what i'm doing now?
now i'm doing well and live in kedah
i managed to be a teacher (finally!) serious teringat balik masa struggle gila time foundation tesl dulu 😓




i think that's all matters bout me.
bye!
😄

BILA KAU TAK SEBULU DENGAN BOS KAU

I just received a new headmaster in my school. My previous headmaster was great, supportive and the list goes on. Then, suddenly my teaching mood had changed 360 degree when my new bos was.... i don't know how to describe it.

Actually he is a nice person. it just....... Im very unfortunate when he is around.

For example, I always did my lesson plan. Unfortunately, last week I did not complete my lesson plan because im rushing to Langkawi. Suddenly...... he came to my class and observe me.

dangggggg!!!!

why???? WHY NOW????

:'(

So, yesterday I try to wear my new shoes. At the end of the day, my feet was swelling like hell. So, today, I wanted to use my old shoe which it is half covered. 

and

he (my new headmaster), 'look' at my shoe. yeah..I know, as a gov servant, I need to wear court shoe. hey! my feet is painful. do u expect me to hurt myself??? :'(

:'(

and there's a lot of things that I think I got a lot of problem with him. I am just not suitable to work with him. that's all.

he's a nice guy. the problem is me. I always bad luck with him. 

p/s : 

#habisrepotasiaku! :'(

Marriage, Expectation and Pregnancy

Bismillah...

Marriage. 

Expectation.

Pregnancy.

Previously, I always remind myself not to put any expectation on the new things that im gonna do.

For example, before I transferred to IPG Penang Campus, before I did my practical in school, I will remind myself not to expect anything. Just go and do what ever it takes and I ALWAYS DO. 

When im married, I forgot about it. The innocent me think that marriage is simple. 

same like other married couples experienced. 

they married happily. having children. grow old together. do everything together. bla...bla.... 

everything was sooooo perfect.

now, 

i realised. i did a big mistake. I have expectation in married. 

to get pregnant and have my own children

Alhamdulillah.. Allah S.W.T grant me with a loving, understanding, cool husband, loving in-laws, happily marriage, grow our phospolipid together...bla...bla...but....

i still not pregnant till now..

if only you know how sad it is.

the feeling become even worse when all your friends whom just married or marry later than you, already having their child n showing off their baby bump. 

ouch. its painful.

im really happy for them actually..however, i feel sad because my rezeki is not arrive yet. 

since then, i start to think about what is my mistake?

is it because of i have so many dosa untill im not fit to be a mother yet?

nauzubillah....

i really hope i could pregnant one day.

to give a lot of children to my husband and grandchildren to my parents. :)

insyaAllah. akan ku cuba lagi dan cuba sampai dapat. 

yang penting usaha 

chaiok3!!

<3